I am praying for you too  / Myra Barton (Mom to Edvin Andrei Ang )


LORD, please bless all these wonderful people around me who inspite of their own grief, they still manage to reach out and comfort others who are grieving as well. Wrap them in your arms as you are doing to me often. Amen. Close

Angel Isabella  / Monika Patterson
 Hi Isabella. I put your picture in my son's journal, and told him alll about you. So when he reads it, he'll know about you. I get so sad for your mommy. I keep thinking how unfair it is. Your mommy is a wonderful person. I know God's going to bless her. Thank you for protecting over the babies. I miss you, even though I never met you. It's a weird connection.~monika Close

Dear Isabella  / Monika Patterson
 I didn't know you or your mommy & family. I watched a beautiful video that your mommy made of you. My son was born on October 22nd 2006. I just want to thank you for being an angel baby. I know your watching over your mommy& family and all the babies all over the world. I believe that when my son smiles while he sleeping, he is dreaming of angel babies like you. I continue to pray for your mommy & family. You are a beautiful child of god. God bless you Isabella. Thank you for protecting us all. Love, Monika Patterson & baby Mason Close

Isabella / Bev Gentile (Grandmother)

Time is marching on Sweetheart, its been six months since I've been able to hold you. Losing you is the sharpest pain I've ever felt. It's a loss I've never had to deal with. It's an emptiness I don't know what to do with. It's a feeling I can't put any where because it's every where. This is the kind of hurt  that won't ever go away because of the deep LOVE I have for you. No matter how much time goes by I will always LOVE you. You are my special little Sweetheart and I will cherish the time I had with you. I carry you with me where ever I go. I hope that you can feel the Love that we send every day to you. Remember, Darling, you will always be a part of us. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, BEAUTIFUL ISABELLA. SNUGGLE HUGS AND A MILLION KISSES XXOOXOXO

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prayers & hugs this holiday (and every day)  / Miranda (youngMAMA22) (another PW friend )
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Happy Easter to BABY ISABELLA and her beloved FAMILY!  / Myra Barton Andrei's Mama


"Jesus said to her, "I am the one who brings people back to life, and I am life itself. Those who believe in me will live even if they die. Everyone who lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe that?" (John 11:25)

Lord, we do believe that! We cling to that hope with all that is within us. It is that promise that gets us through the day and gives us hope for the future. Thank you for reassuring us that death for your children is merely a passage into a perfect world, where you will one day wipe away all our tears. Thank you for EASTER. Close

My little beauty...  / Mommy
You are missed by so many people sweetie. I still can't beleive that you are not here with me. So many people care about you, so many people that never even met you when I come here I am remined of that. I am always thinking of you sweetie and I will love and miss you until the day we are reunited. 
I love you darling

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So Painful  / Mommy
I don't often let myself think about about these things but sometimes I just can't help it. Like every other day, I have thought about you all day long today. Daddy, Luca and I were all just laying on the couch and I started to wonder what we would be doing if you were here? Would you have been laying there with us or would we have been watching you crawl all over the living room exploring the house? I will never know the answer to this question and that makes my heart and my whole body hurt I just hate what has happened, I just miss you so much. What I wouldn't give to have you back here with us. You are always my first thought of the day and my last one before I go to sleep and pray to at least dream of you. I had another thought of you today that I could see so clearly in my mind in the kitchen, I could just imagine you with pigtails standing on the step stool helping me bake something with a big chocolate smile on your face.
I am so so sorry sweetie that we can never have any of this. It breaks my heart over and over again. You will always be remembered as long as I am living I promise you that my little sweetie.
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Love you Baby  / Beverly (Grandmother)
Sweetheart, There isn't a moment out of the day that you are not on my mind. Can't tell you how much I miss you. This family has had to edure many many losses but the most heart wrenching is the loss of you. I can't help but want to hold you and tell you how much I love you. I want to sing you lullabys. I want all that should have been for you and us.       I can't do that so I have to wonder if my little Isabella is  safe in the arms of God and the people that would be there to hold you and comfort you and Love you the way we do.
Isabella, Grandmother simply misses you desperately. Loving you  in my heart, soul and dreams....................Snuggle Hugs and a Million Kisses My Little Beauty. Close

Missing you...  / Mommy
Isabella,
 Today you would have been 7 months old. I can not beleive how the time is just flying by. I am so sad today as I am everyday. I wish that I could have done something to make things different. I would give anything to have you back. Your big brother misses you so much he always talks about you and he says he wishes you could come back. I am so upset that I will not be able to watch you two grow up together. This is just all so unfair.
Millions and millions hugs and kisses sweetie.
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Sweetpea / Beverly Gentile (Grandmother)

Isabella Sweetheart, I'm so angry this happened to you, to us. Life is so precious and is taken for granted until devastation hits family and friends. As time goes on it is normal that we can come to some peace with the passing of an important person in our life. I can't find  even a little peace. I can't understand why this happened, I can't come to terms with you not being here. My stomache is wrapped in knots. Even though you are not physicaly here you are so very important to me. 
I want everyone to know about you, how beautiful you are and the Love you brought with you. How happy you made all of us. How complete the family felt with two healthy beautiful children. I want them to know how you dazzled us with your smile and those gorgeous chubby cheeks.I want them to know how much we Love you. 
My beautiful Granddaughter one day I will hold you as close as I hold your brother Luca right now. I, then will find peace I'm sure..............Until then Sweetpea, stay close to us, we need you. You are in my heart Little One forever and a day. Hugs and Kisses my Little Love.

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Isabella / Mommy
I miss you more every day that passes. Everyday you being gone becomes a little more real and a lot more painful. There is not one thing in the world right now that I can take comfort in. I see other babies at the age that you should be now I get so sad, angry and even jealuos. I don't think i will ever be able to find any peace. My heart is shattered and I know it can never be fixed. I always wonder if you knew how loved you are. I always wonder if I was a good enough mother for you.I hope that you know if there was any way that I could make things different I would do it in a heartbeat. 
There are just so many things that I wanted us to do together it makes me so sad and angry to know that we will never get a chance to do them.
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I wsih i was there  / Grace Cordeiro (old friend/best friend )
Bella,
I know we never met but i have known your mother a long and I know that you and Luca are her everythings. I wish I could have been there for you and her and I am sorry it took so longbut I am here now and would do anything for her. So I hope that you watch over your family. I know that you will never be forgot, she now still speaks of all your good times. Kristen I love you and I hope that you know that I am here and that I am sorry, I am late! My family is yours and will always be. Use us for anything you may need. God Bless you Bella.
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Beautiful Angel  / Bev Gentile (Grandmother)

As time goes on I miss you all the more. Isabella, just 10 1/2 weeks old, as the song says" the story had just begun "but the dreams of your life were already in motion and those had started long before you arrived. I had visions of what you would look like, the dolls you would choose or would you be a little tomboy.? (If Luca had any thing to do with it you would be playing cars all the time.)
When would you take your first step, get your first tooth? Would you look like Mommy or Daddy? All the questions will go unanswered. I am so sorry sweetheart. This has been an unbearable 4 months. You are my Beautiful Grandbaby and I Love you so, so much. You stole my heart Little One and no one can ever take your place. Millions of snuggle hugs and kisses my precious girl.

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Isabella / Mommy
Your name means conserted to God, your nickname Bella means beautiful. How very true these meanings are. I can not beleive that today marks four months that you have been gone. The pain is just as raw as it was four months ago today. I truely do not know how I have survived this long with out you here with us. You are so loved and so missed. We wanted you so much, I can't make sense out of what has happened. There was so much planned for you. I have been going through so many emotions for the past few months and denial and shock are the ones that seem to last the most.
I wish so badly that things could be different for all of us. There will never be a day that passes that you are not my first thought of the day and my last and every thought inbetween. I miss your little "squeaks" I miss everything about you.
I try to tell myself sometimes that you are serving a greater purpose, but that is just not comforting. The one thing that does get me through is knowing that we will see eachother again, that will be a beautiful day.
I Love You my little sweetie with everything that I am.

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Beautiful Isabella  / Angie Means (Angel Mom )
I want you to know that when I read about your beautiful Isabella, my heart breaks.  A mother or father should never have to live without her child.  It warms my heart, though, to see the beautiful memories that you have, together with Isabella.

My son, Jace, died a month before Isabella was born.  He was born on April 12, 2006 and died on September 8th, 2006, also of SIDS.  He was a perfectly healthy and happy baby.  

I always said that if anything ever happened to one of my kids, I would not be able to go on.  The reality is harder, though.  Because we have to go on.  There is no choice.  And so we put one foot in front of the other to live - a life that is so much more hollow than before we lost our children.  

I wish you the best and offer you my prayers tonight.  I would love to talk to you, as I struggle with my loss.  

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Little Sweetie  / Mommy
Isabella,
 I am missing you so much I could never even put how I feel into words. When you left such a big part of me went with you. I keep trying to think of all the good times that we had but no matter how sweet the memories are they all see painful to me right now. I would give anything to have you here with us right now. With you darling our family was so complete. I feel such an emptiness without you. Nothing is the same anymore, I wish so badly that things could be back to the way they were. In my mind all of those sweet memories play back to me. I am so sorry sweetie that I ever try to push them away. I hope someday I will be able to smile when I think of the time that we had together. I will never forget the day you were born there was so much excitment of me going into labor on my own because with your big brother Luca it didn't happen that way they had to induce me. But you came on your own right on your due date and very quickly. I will never forget the moment you were born the doctor laid you right on me the second that you were born. my heart was filled with love you were just so beautiful. I am just having such a hard time understanding how one day I had a beautiful, healthy happy perfect baby and the next day you were gone. I wish there had been something that I could have done to change what happened. I am trying so hard to be the mother that you look down and are very proud of but it is so hard to be the person that  I want to be when there are so many things going on that I don't understand. 
There are only two things that keep me going sweetie, one is knowing that we will be together again when it is my time to join you in heaven and your big brother Luca is the reason I am able to get out of bed in the morning.
I just hope you know and can feel how very much you are loved and missed. You are always on my mind. I carry you in my heart everywhere I go, I know you are always with me and that gives me a little bit of peace from day to day.
There will never be one day that passes that I am not thinking of you and wondering what you would be like right now.
Please Isabella stay close to me and let me know that you are here with me.
I Love You so so so much, Always missing you baby girl.
Love
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Sweetheart / Beverly Gentile (Grandmother)
Isabella,
      Loving you is so easy, you brought so much with you when you were born. Now that you are not with us I feel so robbed of all that should have been. I feel robbed for you and for us. How does one carry on? We all pretend to be strong but if you were to peek in the windows of owr homes when the day slows down and becomes solem you would see each of us in our own way crashing with the reality of life. The tears flow, the nerves fly. I keep asking WHY. There is no answer on this disgusting thing we know as SIDS. You are so innocent and lovely. Your sole is pure and untouched. You are a symbol of Love.
      We will keep you alive through this memorial. In our hearts we will hold you close and never let you go. We will speak of you every day and tell people  about you. You have graced our lives and I thank God you were born to our family. We have been touched by you, beautiful Granddaughter. You will live with us in spirit until we can hold you again. I LOVE YOU  SWEETHEART, MILLIONS OF SNUGGLE HUGS AND KISSES. Close

Isabella / Mommy
This pain of losing you will never go away. You are forever my little princess. I always say that it would be impossible for me to miss you more but every morning that I have to pull myself out of bed and face another day of heartbreak I miss you more. 
I always wonder what life would be like if you were still here. I knwo that it would be so much happier. 
Today you would have been 6 months old. I can only imagine what you would be doing right now. I wish so badly that you were here with us and we were seeing you reach all of the exciting new milestones. 
I feel so broken, more broken than I have felt in all these months that have gone by. I just realized last week that I will never see you crawl, take your first step say mama the list just goes on and on sweetie. 
I wish so badly that things were different, I wonder all the time why this had to happen to you. So beautiful so perfect. So loved so treasured. You were the missing peice of the puzzle and when you were born everything just fit. 
Please stay close Isabella sweetie, please continue to let me know that you are here with me everywhere I go.

"If tears were a stairway, and memory a lane I would walk right up to heaven and bring you home again"

I Love You precious Angel
I hope you continue to feel the love that surrounds you, it always will forever and ever...

Love,
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Thinking of you friend  / Shannon Troncoso (friend of Mommy's )
Kristen,
I enjoyed our conversation last night, it is nice to laugh- it helps to hide from the pain even if just for a minute. I think of you everyday and hope that this monster called grief is being good to you. You are such a special person,and wonderful friend- I hope Isabella and  my Luca are keeping eachother as much company as well. I am blessed to have you as a friend, and  hope you know anytime day or night I'll be here for you. Somehow, someway we will make it through this.
Shannon 

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